The Answer to the BIG Question

The one I answer on an almost daily basis.......
How do you know you're gay?
OK a few facts -

• I have not always felt this way
• I did not come to this conclusion lightly
• I have dated men

I have never felt the way my friends did about men but even when I was in high school I learned to fake the right responses. I was so good at faking I started to believe myself and therefore I could convince myself that what I felt was wrong.
For a long time I ignored what I felt. Eventually with some sympathetic friends I explored this side and over time (2 years to be exact) I came to terms with this.
Now for the really short answer "I like women."
Does that make it easier to understand?
Trust me, life is way more fun!

Introductions

I'd like to introduce a few people that will crop up from time to time in this blog (they don't have their own). All the names have been altered to protect others, they know who they are. Of course if you think I'm talking about you and you don't like the name I've given you then feel free to find me and slap me around the head.

Dee Dee is a snappy dresser (please don't judge her on her choice of weemee clothing). She just happens to be both my friend and in my class. To be honest we spend far too long talking on MSN messenger than in real life recently but that doesn't stop it being an animated rant-fest.


Suggs spends a lot of his time on MSN correcting my idiot-like mistakes but he is an expert on Search and Rescue and photography when he's not applying for a better job. I should point out that he is not a dog but this is the best Google could come up with for Urban Search and Rescue Dogs. We met when I was a university the first time around, although he got his degree and is still planning to use it to become an officer in something called a police force?

The last 2 people I'd like to introduce are Lele and Zuzu, two more students. They are like yin and yang, not sure what that makes me but it's the best way to describe them. We have started some fantastic arguments, almost coming to blows over one topic Zuzu and I.

So that's the happy little crowd. There are more but I guess for the moment these 4 people put their tuppence into the mix more than anyone else.

Home And Dry

Sorry for the random poetry that has been filling this blog of mine. This is only one of two, however I am unable to be as out on the blog all my friends read as I am here. SO on with a little introduction...

Things I Like: Cartooning, writing, reading, TV, computers and NURSING. That's a short list and the stuff you'll find here will be based on one or more of those subjects.

Things I Hate: Essays (I should be writing one right now), narrow-minded people and hiding who I really am.

Why Nursing? Honestly when I was a child I wanted to be Duffy from Casualty (Not that you'll find me wearing a dress or hat on placement!). While I've chased other dreams I have finally come back to this one and I'm loving it.

Am I Different From The Other Nursing Student Blogs? No not really. I stress and struggle like everyone else and I work hard and love placements. One thing makes me a little different though. I'm gay. I've stopped making excuses and I've given up on hiding it, however it is not yet common knowledge amongst those I work with so I keep my head down still. None of this changes my practice or patient care.

I better get back to that esssay now, they don't write themselves, which is a bit of a shame.

Love WardBunny